One Month
Posted by Jules | Filed under Parenting, That's Life
I can’t believe it. Alexia is already a month old. Time, it goes by way too quickly! Before I even know it, she’s not going to be my tiny little baby anymore :(
This last month has been incredible, though. It’s all new experiences for me, because Kailyn didn’t live with me when she was a newborn. I really missed out. Alexia makes the most adorable little noises. Baby sneezes are ridiculously adorable. I love the way she burrows her face in my neck when I’m trying to get her to go to sleep and waves her arms around if I sing to her.
Over the weekend, I felt a little bit of “Grandparent Anxiety”. I wonder if my daughters are missing out in some way. You see, neither of them really have any Grandparents in their lives. My father passed away when I was 11 years old. My mother is simply a terrible person and never wanted anything to do with me. She kicked me out on my 18th birthday and I haven’t spoken to her since. Kailyn’s biological father, Gavin never knew anything about his mother, and his father keeps in contact with me on occasion, but is not involved in Kailyn’s life at all beyond the occasional monetary contribution. Scott’s father just passed away last year, and his mother responded to that very poorly and left the state. We’re not sure she’s ever going to come back here. We sent her a birth announcement for Alexia and haven’t heard anything back from here.
I guess with the levels of instability that are surrounding these people, my kids might be better off, but it just seems like if you don’t grow up with Grandma’s cookies, and Grandpa’s old time stories, you’re missing some huge childhood experience. I don’t know how I can give that to them. So I stressed about it all weekend. I feel a bit less anxious about it today, and I made cookies early this morning for Kailyn’s class, just in case. Maybe Mom cookies are just as good.
