2010
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I do believe this is the first New Year that I’ve rung in sober in a good 10 years. It was an excellent start anyway.
I remember last year being excited for 2009 and I find myself no less excited for 2010. I’ll spare you the mushy crap because I’ve said it a million times. I love my daughter, I love my husband, and I can’t wait for my new baby!
Peanut has finally flipped head down, and we’re all eagerly awaiting the Grand Entrance to the World. Hopefully after Kailyn’s birthday.
What are you looking forward to in the new year?
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Just A Few More Weeks!
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Why yes, I do realize that I am the worst blogger on the planet. :)
It’s been pretty quiet lately, surprisingly. I’ve had some health issues. Peanut is perfectly fine, but taking a lot out of me, and the doctor keeps threatening to put me on bed rest if I don’t relax. So, I’ve been taking it easy.
Peanut is still breech. There’s still a few weeks until my due date, though theoretically it could pretty much be any time now. We’ve been trying to get the baby to flip, but no dice so far.
Scott finished painting the nursary and we have it mostly furnished and almost done, surprisingly enough. Kailyn has walked in there a few times and looked around, and decided that her bedroom is better. That was a relief to hear, I was worried that she would be jealous and want her room redone.
We’re having a combination baby shower/holiday party on Saturday. I’m looking forward to it, it’ll be fun. We’re going much less traditional with the baby shower since we expect lots of man-type folks to show up. Some of the ladies from my prenatal yoga class are coming; it’ll be interesting to see how they get on with my normal crew!
I have to say, it’s been a huge relief having new mom-type friends. I didn’t have that with Kailyn and it was rough. Support groups rock! I still don’t know what to do with a newborn, though.
PS: my belly is huge!
Brain Shift – Oh Hai, I’m Pregnant.
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So, now that the wedding has happened, all I can think about now is Peanut. It’s a rather amazing thing, how quickly my head changed gears. The wedding feels like it was forever ago sometimes.
Ah, the wedding was perfect though! Kailyn was an angel, the catering didn’t explode, my cake was delicious, and it was great to have so many of my friends together all at the same time. And, of course, marrying the most amazing man I’ve ever met wasn’t bad either.
We had a blast on the honeymoon, too. My friend Anna and her husband and baby stayed at the house for us, and took care of Kailyn and Benji for us and we went San Diego and Los Angeles.
San Diego is beautiful! Coronado is adorable, I’d move there in a heartbeat ;) Los Angeles was fun to visit, for a few days. We had a good time. I don’t think I need to go back to LA, ever, though.
And now, we’re back home, and prepping for Peanut’s arrival in January. I feel like I’m so behind on everything, because I kept putting off planning cause of the wedding. It’ll work out though!
I went to the doctor for another routine checkup yesterday, and she said Peanut is doing fantastic, and that I’m doing fantastic, and everything looks normal. Scott and I have picked a name, too. Well, we’ve narrowed it down to two anyway. That’s pretty impressive I think.
I’m so happy I think I could pop!
Tags: honeymoon, peanut, wedding
Pre-wedding Thoughts
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I’m getting married tomorrow.
What a strange journey it was to here. It’s amazing how much has happened in the past 6 years, since I left Boston. Tomorrow I turn the page, and start a new chapter. Tonight, an old chapter ends, one that I’m not sad to see go.
People have been asking me all week, “Hey Jules, are you nervous yet?” and every time the answer has been no. No, I’m not.
Perhaps other people get nervous because they wonder if they’re making the right choice. I don’t have to wonder; I know that I am.
Scott is an amazing man. He’s always there when somebody needs a shoulder, a friend, or anything else. He puts his whole heart and soul into everything he does. He’s kind, and patient, and loving. He’s got a small devilish streak and a gleam in his eye that keeps things fun. Of course he’s not perfect. I don’t want perfect though. Perfect is just a load of crap bound to come up sooner or later anyway.
Perhaps nerves from not being sure if they’re ready to give up the “single” life. Mine can go, please.
Being a single mother was the most stressful task I’ve ever, and likely ever will, take on. It was terrifying not having someone else to turn to when I was second guessing my methods- I had no idea what to do with a kid (heh. I still barely do!). I hated having to do all the discipline, and always be the bad guy, and still try to be the good guy; to not be too hard on Kailyn when I was the only person around to deal with it and my temper was getting the best of me. For Kailyn to not have a positive male influence in her life.. it killed me. And in the back of my mind was always “what if something happens to me? What happens to Kailyn?”. Scott will be legally adopting Kailyn and it’s a huge relief to me. She adores him, he adores her.. this is the kind of family I wanted. Peanut will only make it better.
Before Kailyn was a mess of drugs and booze and meaningless sex. There was aimless wandering, a sense of no home, no where to go, nobody that cared, or understood, and all that other teenage angst type crap. Never need any of that again. Happy to forget it. Nasty breakups, bad relationships, and all the other “joys” of single life, nope, won’t miss them, though I am thankful for them because they taught me things I needed to know.
Scott fills in the blanks in me. He balances my negatives. He doesn’t let my temper get to him when it gets the best of me. When he looks at me, there’s so much love in his eyes, more than I could have ever imagined was possible. I can think of nothing more that I want than to have him with me, always.
Why would I be nervous? Tomorrow, the best part of my life begins.
Here’s hoping I don’t trip, and that the caterers are all on time!
Tags: growing, Kailyn, reflecting, scott, wedding
School, Already? Seriously?
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When I was a kid, school didn’t start until September. Kailyn starts kindergarten on Monday. Yes, halfway through August. I’d be more annoyed at her opposition to this idea if I didn’t think it was bullshit myself haha.
We went school supply shopping today (because I am the Queen of Last Minute [actually, to be honest, I hadn't realized school started this Monday until about 3 hours ago]) and I tried to explain this “real school” concept to her.
Kailyn is all kinds of into comparisons right now. When I told her about her future sibling and was trying to describe what having a baby in the house was going to mean, she understood it best when it was summed it up as “Remember when we got the puppy and Mommy had to spend all her time chasing him around and cleaning up after him, and you got less attention than you used to? It’s kind of like that, but longer”. So, I took a similar approach to kindergarten.
“It’s kind of like your daycare was, except Mommy will not be able to randomly keep you home some days, and you’ll have to sit still and learn things instead of playing all day.”
She decided she didn’t like that idea. Of course. We managed to survive supply shopping with our sanity intact but the idea of dragging an angry red-headed child through the mall for clothes didn’t sound appealing at all, so we’re home again for the time being.
I suspect she may have just been tired, because she fell asleep on the couch as soon as we walked in the door, but I really hope she grows more okay with the idea by Monday. We’ll try the clothes shopping later.
One battle at a time.
Tags: Kailyn, kindergarten, one battle at a time, school
